Best Friends are the best :-)

Yay! I got surprised with a Christmas present of new shiny pretties today, from one of my favorite chicas in the world.. I love them!

Music induced nostaliga

MMMbop just came on the '90's Hits station. Every time I hear this song, it makes me instantly happy because it reminds me of my 14th birthday, when Joshua brought me a present. He presented the Middle of Nowhere CD to me, saying, "I touched this just for you. Happy Birthday!" 

Now, THAT'S a true friend! :P

(And I then proceeded to play it so much that I both made it unplayable, and my dad said he'd do something drastic to it if I didn't stop playing MMMbop all the time! lol)

Brain freezes & light bulb moments don't mix well..

I may sound a bit disjointed this go round, I'm sorry. I know what I want to write about, I have the thoughts in mind.. but for some reason they're not wanting to meld seamlessly like they usually do. But hopefully the gist of it comes out...

So, I've pretty much weened myself off of Facebook, looking through my entries, it seems to be over a month since I first clicked the 'Deactivate Account' button. And for the most part, I haven't missed it. I have checked back a few times, for maybe two minutes a time-just to see if anything has changed, or if there was big developments that I've missed since I've gotten out of the loop.

And tonight was finally an occurrence of major developments going unknown by me. You see, there's this person that I met/started talking to in earnest a couple months ago. I wanted to get to know them better, maybe become close, see where the friendship might go (or fizzle). They were just getting through a breakup, from someone I had known.

They might not have had  no clue what was going through my thoughts. Heck, even I didn't know until recently. But, either way it's where the thing of my shyness and 'slow to warm up' personality comes into play. See, ever since I was little, school would start at the end of August and it would take me months to warm up to the other kids. By the time I was finally forging friendships, summer break would hit and then, if they didn't live near me, I would basically have to start all over the next school year.

Anyway, back to the 'major' development. This person and I were talking A LOT, constant texting every day for awhile. Then, all of a sudden, it seemed to have just dropped off. Bouts of sickness, work, busy schedules on both our ends seemed to be the culprit. (And what was 'blamed' as the cause.) But, I randomly signed on tonight to see in my news feed that they and their ex have reunited back into a relationship. And they had mentioned that they had met with them a few times recently. Which, connecting in my mind with a previous blog discussion about people seeming to only want to use me to fill the void until they work things out with whomever, seems to make the absence of texts I'm getting make sense.

I can recall several instances where it seemed as though I was truly being used as a 'seat filler' until the person they wanted in that particular spot of their lives came back. And this seems to fit the mold of those times.

What do you guys think? First, can you make sense of what my poor brain is trying to say? Second, do you ever experience things like this? How did you proceed with the acknowledgement when you realized what was going on- did you confront or just shrug your shoulders, thinking 'oh well, their loss.'?

Incompetent parenting, Male tact and Cloning needs to happen like NOW!

Such a very looooooonnnggg day at work. Not too hard, nothing too time-consuming, but those two things alone can make a day seem that it drags on and on..and on. The only thing that really sticks out about my work day at the moment is the question: Why do parents drag their sick children shopping??

Come about seven o'clock, I was told to zone Halloween for a half hour before I locked up, took my last break and left. 7:05, and I look up just in time to see a miserable looking little girl getting sick all over the floor. I didn't even have time to react, before a second.. and a third giant mess appeared. And her parent's didn't even apologize or offer to help clean it up. They just took to another area of the store! What the F is wrong with some people? Poor little thing needed to be at home in bed, not dragged around a big box store!

And of course, the only maintenance that was there was the slower one, and the method he was trying to employ to clean it was not at ALL efficient, so his helper had to stop him from doing anything but guarding it and we ended up cleaning it up. Soooooooo what I like doing, I can tell you! Hmmm.. but it did get me out of zoning Halloween for a good fifteen minutes.. so there's the silver lining, I guess.

I got another reminder via text from a friend that Nick either needs to be cloned or somehow overwrite every other man's mental stuff with his. Why do I say this? I got a text from a male friend that said that I seem disinterested in him lately. Self-centered, much?

The only response I could think of was: "Hm. How to respond non-bitchily.. Because I don't really want to be..? How about i just say that comes across kind of self centered regarding your perception of my interactions.. When I've been increasingly and persistently sick the past week and a half?"

His response was, "Ok all you had to say is no just sick? But i understand." (Complete with grammar & spelling errors.. and he's a writer. But no, he is not a reader of this, so I'm safe to vent.) Anyway. Self-centered, much? And not even the cute self-centered!

Okay, onto more cute guy traits, the one that made me laugh today.

The male species seems to have little tact naturally, it seems. One of my favorite co-workers walked by me, and stopped. And after looking at me for a minute, asked me if I was alright, because I look really pale.

Yeah, I'm not feeling the best, but thank you for telling me I look yucky! lol

And he didn't stop there, which made it even better! I'm still giggling now. I said, at least my skin isn't breaking out in spots as bad as it usually is when I'm ill.. and he said, "Well, if it does, then you can just tell people you're trying out different Halloween costumes!"

What?? I just said I'd walk away then, so he wouldn't put his foot any further into his mouth.. and giggled the whole time. lol

I told Nick about it, and he explained it as, " We have male tact. Completely different to female tact. He said that because to a guy that sounds compassionate, but not queer." (Such a way with words, yes? But it makes sense, if you think about it...)

This evening we started painting mom's bedroom, but I'm getting so very sleepy so I'll update on that maybe tomorrow...

Cutting ties and starting anew..

What a very, very LONG day! It's funny the unusual things that happen through the course of the day that you don't expect when you wake up. But, first, Day One of Facebook hiatus is completed! Made it a whole 24 hours without it, and with the exception of automatically thinking, "Day one of Facebook free, how freeing and interesting this will be" in Facebook status form this morning while I was getting ready for work, I didn't have much of an urge to sign on. This could be easier than I thought! Which brings me to the the other somewhat (but not really) related events of the day. I traded my old phone number for a brand new one. After drama events found their way into my inbox, it pushed me to make the decision that I've been contemplating for while to change it. At first, I didn't think I'd be able to afford it right away, when I called customer service, they told me that it would cost $36 dollars to do! I was texting my friend Tab about it, and she said to hold on and she'd talk to her buddy who apparently works at the At&T store in the mall. When I got off, he told her to tell me to go into the store and he'd take care of it for me. Less than a half hour later, I was all set with a new number, for free! A half hour after that, and I was in the middle of helping her hold up the counter at her job, chatting away. :-) She's cool, I like her. And she's 'what you see, is what you get'. I need more friends like that! After I finally made it home, I whittled down the people who actually have the ability to reach me by phone down to a mere 14 for now.. and I think that that will be good. Others I see at work, and people also have my email address. I figured this would be the best time to cut ties with benefit-less relationships, creeps, stagnant friendships and people that tend to try to bring me down. And now, I figure it is time to curl up under my covers with my furballs and sleep, sleep, sleep! Did I mention it was a very, very long day?

Happy New Year and good night..

I think I'm turning in for the night.. my phone's already blowing up with Happy New Year's texts, and that's all that's on my Facebook feed... My phone's off for now, so I can actually get to sleep without the screen lighting up periodically.

I wish my friends, family and readers all a Happy New Year.. and I hope you all make it home safe and sound tonight and no arrests! (lol)*knock on wood*

How are you planning on ringing in the New Year?

With a slightly defective car, my plans aren't very exciting. Actually, they're kind of absent- I plan on maybe watching a bit of TV, cleaning house, and going to bed like any other night.

I was wondering what's on everyone else's agenda? Is it like mine, quiet and at home? Drunken debauchery? Somewhere in the middle?

Inspiration for the New Year

My Facebook status from earlier: "is about to throw out what is wasteful and abandon unsuccessful situations, replacing them with something more solid and useful... Including both material and immaterial things. (Perfect time to be inspired for such a movement, with the new year tomorrow!)"

This year was something else, especially relationship-wise. Certain people that I was sure would move on, (and I was told by others that it was inevitable,) haven't. At the same time, people I thought I was close to and didn't foresee an ending or fading from have gone down other paths in life-ranging from moving cross country to having new babies to new relationships. Not really any one's fault, per se', but these changes tend to affect people and the way they can spend their time and attention. Which is totally understandable and I'm happy for my friends and the new opportunities coming their way, but also saddened by the fact of the distance and lacking closeness.

This year did bring about a few surprising developments in friendships, from closeness with people I've known for years casually to awesome friends that I've made just in the last year.

I think one of my New Year's resolutions is to let go of my hopes for remaining as close to some people as I've been in the past when my efforts aren't returned and instead, spend my energy building my friendships of those in my life's present day. Not to say that I'll cut them out of my life entirely-but that I should stop living in the past and look ahead to the future and where things are now.

Really, I guess it just comes down to that I'm done bending over backwards to keep certain people in my life. It comes down to one simple truth...either I matter to them or I don't. And the last six months have really helped to show me which category most of my friend's and acquaintances fall into.

I wish all of my friends, family, acquaintances and blog readers a Happy New Year, and that you can accomplish everything you want and have the best time of your life!

Ten things I want..

I must say, this is the first time that I've been inspired by Twitter for a blog entry!

Instead of 10 separate tweets to fulfill this tag, I just thought I'd do an umbrella blog!

In no particular order:

1.) Endless supply of margaritas
2.) A man that treats me right, who does what he can to fulfill my needs and desires-even if there's only irregular opportunities for it..
3.) A life-time pass to Burger King and their oh-so-delicious Whoppers and onion rings!
4.) For people to stop criticizing my weight, one moment I'm too skinny, the next I'm gaining too much! AUGH!
5.) A kiss that takes my breath away.
6.) Fewer health problems
7.) A job that doesn't feel like a job
8.) To be free of my OCD and anxieties
9.) My friends and family to be happy and healthy and achieve all that they want in life
10.) The ability to mute annoying chick-chatter and to knock some non-deserving men's egos down a few notches.

Photo Challenge: Day Thirteen

Day Thirteen: A picture of something you want to do before you're thirty.. Road trip with friends with no predetermined destination!

Photo Challenge: Day Twelve

A picture of your favorite band or artist;

This entry is late, because I couldn't decide on just ONE favorite band over all, let alone out of my favorite local bands! So, Metallica was it for mainstream, and here's one of my favorite local bands.. you should really check out Insanguine ;-)

Photo Challenge: Day Nine

A picture of the person you do the most ****** up things with



I do believe Jen could qualify for or be somehow related to many of the entries that will compose this challenge! <3 you lady!

Photo Challenge: Day Eight

A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most....



There's a small handful of people I could put, but hubby's been there for me for a great deal of things in just the year that we've known each other--and I love the pic lol

Photo Challenge: Day Six

A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day


Okay, so yet another entry where I have two answers. The first one is a real life person, a great friend of mine, Meredith. She's been so many places, making such a great place for herself in life and just is a totally awesome and wonderful person.



and the other is Dharma from 'Dharma and Greg'. I've known people like her, and I just would love to be able to live that carefree and stuff. And plus, she is tres' adorable!

Photo Challenge: Day Five

A picture of your favorite memory

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Hands down, one of my top favorite memories was when Josh and I FINALLY got to have a reunion last summer after far too long of not seeing each other!

Photo Challenge: Day Four

A picture of your favorite night

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ooohh... I would have to say last August when Jen and I celebrated our birthdays at Studio 13 and Jaclynn and hubby came as well :-)

I promise..

..I haven't forgotten about my dear reader(s)! Life has just been soooo very hectic lately, and I've been so very exhausted for much of it, that there is no brain power left at the end of the day (or even the middle of it!).

I do have tomorrow off, so I hope to be able to post something (or maybe even a few somethings!) for you!

Meantime, I'm gonna do a half-assed 'half assed post', idea courtesy of Simple Dude at http://www.thesimpledude.com/.. (AWESOME blogger, you should really check him out!)

and here is the topic of the night.. I was chatting (like always) with my man, and we were discussing our 'lists of five'- you know, five celebrities you could sleep with if given the chance. He gave me five guys (umm.. he's completely straight lmao!) which were Elton John, George Michaels, David Bowie, Chad Kroeger and Patrick Stewart. But when I asked him what his list of chick celebrities would be, he just replied it'd be too long of a list! LMAO

Anyway, dear reader.. if you were wondering what my lists would be (trusting you haven't fallen asleep from my rambling, that is!) here they are, in no particular order:

Guy Celebrities:
1.)Brad Pitt
2.)Jason Michael Carrol
3.)Toby Keith
4.)Johnny Depp
5.)Trent Reznor

Chick Celebrities:
1.)Jennifer Aniston
2.)Courtney Cox
3.)Jenna Elfman
4.)Helena Bonham Carter (You know, that chick from Sweeney Todd and Fight Club)
5.)Britney Spears (yeah, when she's taking care of herself and not crazy)

So, dear readers... have you ever thought about what celebrities you'd definitely get with? Care to share one, two (or all?)

So thoughtful!

I just got the most awesome, thoughtful Christmas present! (yes, I said Christmas.. in March.. just smile and nod..)



There's this painting that I've been wanting for MONTHS or maybe a year and more.. and a friend that I was meeting up with tonight gave me a present.. and it was the print! BIG print, not just a little poster replication you can get cheap. Oh my god.. talk about taking my breath away! It's gorgeous! I love LOVE it! And I can't believe he remembered which print I wanted most (It's a series of four, I believe)



Now.. I just have to get a beautiful frame for it. Yay!

God, I love witty comebacks!

OMG..*laughing my ass off* I think I just found my favorite line from the entire Friends series! It's from the episode where Rachel is past her due date & they are trying everything they can think of to induce labor.. She wants to try sex, Ross doesn't.. and her comeback is, "Come on Ross...Just think of me as a ketchup bottle, sometimes you have to bang on the end of it just to get something to come out"...

Are those butterflies in my stomach..

...or big freakin' hawks??
I'm kinda.. okay, REALLY.. nervous about plans I have for tomorrow night. I have no idea what to expect or how it will turn out. A friend that I've been on the outs with for months and I made arrangements to get together and try to talk about things. I'm so worried that I'll say or do something to make things even worse, just by being so nervous and worried about saying and doing the things that I want to. (Just think of it being a combination of being around someone I really adore and the fact that the more I want to do right by them and say exactly what I mean that I apparently lose the ability to fully express myself.)


(like the rambling in this entry.. I think I'm going to lose myself in my book and try to sleep soon.. that'll at least ease my mind for the night!)